January, 2014 Archives

These are my eyes. They aren’t trails to watering holes, autumn leaves, marbled stone, complex starry universes, fleshy breasts or radish bottoms..these are my eyes.

My eyes are up here.

I might have already posted this at some point. It’s one of my favorite internet videos. So awesome. I want to see this some day. Or even better..be this some day.



How great is this girl?!

(btw..pretty sure i had those same shoes…)


Special thanks to Ross for finding this one.

Never enough time

Please watch this.

Bus 174

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
- Howard Thurman

That is a good point.

This is Water from Patrick Buckley on Vimeo.

What do you do when you realize you’ve just been waiting for no reason. And that waiting, did more than just rob you of time, but also robbed you of purpose. That waiting, allowed everything to be temporary, when that temporary was in fact exactly the now and after that, the then. A long trail of then. A long trail of then that now circles around and shows you that there wasn’t anything to be waiting for. And the now, now feels very, very hollow, and pointless. The now feels like looking into a deep black void asking in a very low voice, “what’s the point.?” All that stuff that was being done while one was waiting, was stuff for certain, and was maybe contributing towards what one was waiting for. But maybe not stuff that would have been done had one not been waiting. So now what? Seems waiting was tied up real tightly to hope. So if you realize the waiting was for naught, does the hope go too..or does that somehow shift to an achievable future once one realizes that one shouldn’t wait any longer. But what if you don’t know what future you want? Or, you know, but you know it’s not a future that can be had alone. Or if you don’t know, how to find out?  Then what? What’s left in the place of the hope and the waiting and the now and the then? Seems like nothing at the moment.

Photo taken in Chitwan National Park, Nepal – 2010, then.


Now. And. Then.